^Gift of brokenness

Was brokenness a sad thing? I believed it was far from that. In my prayer time, all I did for one hour was to ask God for the Gift of brokenness.

I asked at my office table. I asked at my home. Ask and I did receive...

All of a sudden, things that broke His heart started breaking mine. No more hardness, just tenderness before the Lord. And I experienced what it meant to live a life of brokenness.

Time flew - I cried - Lord came.

I asked the Lord 'Is this all what it means to be broken before you' ?
I felt the Lord saying its the Opposite of Pride. Pride goes into our heart WHEN we start NOT depending on the Lord for the SMALL things. That's when the Lord prompted to msg a person and when I was msging the person. I just felt so broken as the Lord spoke through. And that person too was broken before the Lord. I thank God for opportunity to speak into the brokenness. God used to me to be a blessing to another person the very moment I asked Him to teach me what brokenness means. He spoke to me that through my brokenness, He will bless many others.


Just something I felt as I was typing this entry.

Who said Life was all EASY but Jesus said come to me and I'll make your yoke EASY.

Sometimes,
when Life is not easy, we easily forget God.
when Life is easy, we dont easily remember God.

ALL I can ask of the Lord is MORE!!!

DRAWING NEAR

picked up a rather timely book in our focus on intimacy -- i'm currently reading "Drawing Near" by John Bevere, in which he encourages us to know God rather than just know more about God.


some notable points in the book worth pondering about:

"Over the past twenty years of ministry...i've discovered two major groups within the church...the first are those who seek God for what He can do; while the second seek Him for who He is."

"The only way we can create and maintain a hunger for God is to protect our soul by choosing what we fill it with. ...if your soul is filled with...the desires of this world, you'll be full and actually despise the sweet honeycomb of God's fellowship."

am i seeking Him for what i want? (Lord, bless me with this and that..?)
am i full and contented with worldly things? (no wonder i don't hunger for Him..)

WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT

we bring a smile to God's face.

Salvation is wrought because men of God pray; prayer moves the hand of God.

God is the God of the rain. the winds of change is blowing; the end of the drought is nigh. there is water for the seeds; revival is at hand.

God is moving.

welcome, God.

^ Brokeness

My answer to LUKE WARMNESS is BROKENNESS

My responses to today's sermon:

It is a desperation concerning 3 areas


1. Concerning the Condition of our hearts

Only when we see the emptiness of our hearts can we draw near to the Lord.

Last time, when I sinned, there's always a sense of condemnation in me. Yes, I know God died for me and I am forgiven because of the cross and my confession. I would still feel discouraged that I have committed the sin willfully. Now, after this new understanding, I have come to a realization that it only shows a NEED FOR GOD in my life. I must thirst after Him in this dry and weary land. That's the appropriate response. I will sin NO MORE.

2. For the Cleansing of the Lord

You can love only God so much because you know how much God loves you. Until you see the sinfulness of your heart, you would not see the greatness of God.

I acknowledge what my heart is capable of, thus appreciate who God is.

3. For a New Creation

There's nothing in us that wills to do God's will. If ever there's willingness to pray/ serve, it is a grace of God. Christian life is not about behavior modification, its about heart transformation.

I was touched by the fact that it is only by the Grace of God that we are able to things that pleases the Lord. I never did see that in the total picture that was described by pastor. I always thought that "I" disciplined myself to pray. Never did I see it that It was only by the grace of God that I was even willing to be disciplined and to pray. What a revelation for me. It was never an "I" in it.

LUKEWARMNESS

i just sensed that we must guard against lukewarmness in our midst, i realise the dangers if we unknowingly become numb.

i feel that i don't love God enough.
God, why don't i love You enough?
- because i am loving other things of this world. i wanted other things, God was only top priority in my head.


Lord, help me put You first in my life where You belong. i pray that i will desire You more than anything of this world. i pray that You ignite the fire within me. thank You for the things You are doing, i want more of You. more than anything.

Amen.

Prayer Buddies

Daniel and I have been praying on Fridays.

A few fridays back, during our time before the Lord, I felt that one of the brothers maybe in danger. So we prayed for all of you.
Then on the next week wednesday (some cny celebrations at Changi Naval base), so I was travelling on a shutter bus to Changi Naval base. Suddenly, the bus veered to the side of the roas (**** super straight road). And it tilted. Scared me for a while. And the bus hit a lamppost and came back on course. Without the lamp, we were gone. We could have toppled over if not for the lamp post...Hmmm lamppost or??? Then I realised WITHOUT GOD, we are gone! A simple thanksgiving for The Lord who saves!

Last friday, Daniel and I felt simply to pray for revival, also deny ourselves and devote ourselves to God. So we just with no agender spent one hour praying in tongues. Awesome TIME... Just very wonderful. And on that day, we came up with a plan, to meet up and to pray together atleast once a month. Of course, all are invited.
This is the thanksgiving part. Then came in the Challenge from Ps Seng Lee to go start prayer meeting everywhere possible. And after came in another heartfelt message and challenge issued by Ps Khong. I can totally see how God is leading us. All in one direction - - - - He is our Shepherd.

fishing buddies

today i went fishing with george again. it was a good time of exercise as well as spending time to seek the Lord. i was just singing and projecting my voice from one end of the shore to the other. i experienced some peace that was very much needed after a day doing relief teaching. ive learnt much these two days doing teaching. Thank God that my arm is well enough to carry out most tasks. pray that God will lead me to spending my time wisely before i enter uni. im feeling quite like a bum. dont want to be sitting around and doing nothing! haha.

WHO FAST WHAT?

i am fasting my dinners. (stomach grumbles)
and from music. (the horror!)

that's where it hurts for me, and more importantly, that's where i can have greater freedom to p-r-a-y!

so what are YOU fasting from?
let's spur each other on.

Fast Fast

Thank you daniel for posting =p

As for me i am fasting from TV/Movies and my lunch.

Today is the first day. i think the hard part is not the forgoing of these but to really pray for 1 hr. and so i am trying to stick closely to it.

=p

3 2 1 GO!

THIS IS THE 400th POST!

.AS WELL AS THE START OF OUR 40DAY FAST.

THIS BLOG HAS BEEN SLEEPING IN FOR AWHILE... TAKING ITS SABBATH.

HOWEVER, I THINK ITS TIME FOR A REVIVAL TO TAKE PLACE AND IT STARTS HERE.

IT REALLY DOESNT TAKE LONG TO POST SOMETHING.
MAYBE 10MINS. YOU DON'T HAVE TO WRITE AN ESSAY OR ANYTHING. MAYBE IT COULD JUST BE A PICTURE THAT GOD SPOKE TO YOU THROUGH.

LETS DO THIS TOGETHER. IF YOU HAVE ANY REAL DIFFICULTIES PLEASE CONTACT OUR BOSS.

IF NOT EVERYONE IS IN.

i think this is just an avenue for us to share what God is teaching us and also to make sure that we are spending time with God. dont do it for the sake of doing it. may the Lord speak to us.

have a good fast.

your brother,

CharlieBird