Jesus is my Boss, but then...

'Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and lean not on your own understanding,
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he'll make your paths straight.'

So its an easy verse to quote yeah?
Alot of us just quote this verse and fail the test when its time to 'trust'
I did. I failed the test, BIG TIME.

I had my 'hell' week last week.
5 project submissions- hand clap
I was sleep deprived, energy deprived, and most of all time deprived.
Taking things into my own hands, i skip my devotion times thinking
that i could have 'more' time to 'pia' my projects and that led to one more thing
depriving myself from the strength and power of GOD.

Busy till there's no place for GOD to fit into the schedule?
No no.. is I choose not to fit GOD into my schedule
Why? Simply because I don't trust GOD and trust myself to get the job done.
When i realise the condition of my heart, i beat my chest
and the only thing i could do was to repent at the altar of GOD.

What does it mean to trust in the LORD and lean not on your own understanding?
When I tried to make sense of the situation and choose to spend time on my project instead of giving GOD that place, it is leaning on my own understanding and not trusting.
Its looking at the situation 'Oh jia lat, I better spend time doing this first.'
Thats call leaning on my own understanding of the situation.

Nevertheless, I still thank GOD that his hand
was upon me in the midst of my 'hell' week.
As i read my projects, the things i typed out 'Wow, is this from Angus Sham?? The C5 GP standard?'
I thank GOD for his faithfulness,
Even when i was unfaithful/Pang seh
God was faithful, he did not forsake me.

My friends, learn from my mistake. Choose to put GOD first in the midst of adversity.
'Every opportunity to fear, is an opportunity to trust GOD.'