be brave

1 samuel 15-17

i think this is the first time--or one of the first times
that i read david and goliath straight from the bible and not from a children's book.

but one verse stood out:
1 sam a5:22-23
does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the voice of the Lord?
to obey is better than sacrifice
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
for rebellion is like the sin of divination
and arrogance like the evil of idolatry.
because you hae rejected the word of the Lord,
he has rejected you as king.

even a slight deviation from the word of God is insufferable.

but all it takes, i learnt today, is "bravery"
just steeling yourself and telling yourself, you have to do it
and do it.
and see it through.
and remind yourself if you need to.
just be strong.

i need to learn to please God.
and cast aside excuses of struggles, temptations, urges,
cast aside that which so easily entangles
and simply, surely,
choose to obey god.

aye.
so help me god.