pain, and restoration

deut 30-32

the Lord repeats again and again the blessings and curses, of obedience and insolence, respectively.

like he wants to drill it into the mind of israel.
they don't seem to get it.

God already foresees israels treachery, and teaches them a song to sing about their treachery. kinda ironic, isnt it.

today i was brushing my teeth as always, so that i wouldnt be so sleepy reading the word.

i grimaced. i winced. i ran out of vocabulary.

its difficult to brush your teeth properly when the mother of all ulcers resides on your upper lip, and the Godfather of all ulcers on your bottom lip. and recently this happy couple that comes together everytime i close my mouth bore a child--the pinnacle of evil, at the gums in the back corner of my mouth.

for some reason i heard God saying to me what he said to the israelites as i was in my diffculty. he said, turn to a life of obedience and you will see blessings, healing, health.

i want to, i do.
i try.

i have to put my foot down.

moses didnt get to go into the promised land because he hit a rock instead of speaking to it.
sounds trivial?
God counted it as breaking faith with him and failing to uphold his holiness in the presence of the israelites.

no compromise.

i have to put my foot down.